I’ve considered myself burned out since I graduated college. And I could not afford to fully grieve Shian-Ren’s stroke at the time, so I’ve stretched that out and I think I experience the grief on a daily basis, often in the form of unfocused anger (or anger at things for which there is no one to blame, which does not decrease the anger at all). The key is to be able to get things done while being burned out and to let the anger just flow through and don’t let it affect me. Some days it’s easier to do this than others.
It has been a few days and I am off the Vicodin and trying to proceed with just ibuprofen. The intense pain is gone and the area is no longer temperature sensitive. But there is a dull ache that gets worse as the day goes on and the tooth is sensitive to sharp impacts. I have to chew anything that is not soft on the other side. Hopefully it will still improve.
Pain August 23, 2014
The pain was pretty intense this morning, so I called the dentist and he prescribed some Vicodin. I made the mistake of trying to chew/eat something while waiting for the scrip to be filled and this resulted in intense pain that didn’t go away for about an hour after I took the pill.
5 hours into my first pill. It’s helping some but my tooth is still sore as hell. Can’t chew anything, even on the other side. This stuff is not as good as the codeine I had when my wisdoms came out, which was a hell of a lot more trauma then the little drill-fill I got yesterday.
Filling August 22, 2014
Managed to get an appointment this afternoon. There was a small chip (from gum chewing; I know exactly when this happened; Ru-Jun and I were on a go-cart at Country Fair on Tuesday). He put a filling in. I still need Ibuprophen and will for a day or two but it is certainly no worse than it was. Hopefully it will get back to normal and I won’t need something more drastic (root canal).
Wow. I have to get to the dentist. Since Tuesday I’ve had really bad temp sensitivity between my back two lower right molars. The pain whenever I drink anything non room temp is nearly blinding. Ibuprophen (but not tylenol) gets it back to baseline OK, but as soon as I drink something – it flares. It’s like someone hit me in the side of the face with a baseball bat.
We went back to Country Fair yesterday August 19, 2014
Ru-Jun had promised me that next time she would go on the go carts with me. She knows that I really like go carts (although haven’t ridden them in many years). I was OK with not going on them but she really wanted to keep her promise (and I think she really wanted me to do something to make me happy) so we went on them. It was fun; I think she had a little fun although it was not her favorite thing to do. Our car wasn’t the fastest but that was OK. Then we did her thing: the arcade. And after that we had some food there (they have good hots and burgers). We were back home by 6:20, so it was a good thing to do in the late afternoon. I told her that yesterday was super special and we can’t do it again for a while, September after some school at the earliest. I hope she doesn’t ask to go again until then. We’ll see.
The one on Saturday was at a friends house (really nice house, really nice pool). Ru-Jun loved it (and she’s really good friends with the birthday girl). I met the birthday girl’s mom for the first time (she joined their K class mid-year last year). Talked with parents that I knew from other events the whole time. Really fun party.
The one on Sunday was at Country Fair, an entertainment park. Ru-Jun refused to go on the go carts with me so we didn’t go (more on this in later post, as we went back there yesterday). She had a bit of fun playing mini-golf (did that mostly independently, which was good to see) but was getting hot and hungry/thirsty at the end. Then after the party ceremonies she was in heaven in the arcade, playing games, getting tickets, cashing them in for prizes. She loved it.