A mind frame with which it is hard to deny congruence: Ru-Jun doesn’t have the discipline that I would like her to have because I don’t have the mental discipline to concentrate on her like a laser when she does everything. My mind needs freedom to rest. She necessarily must be on her own in many moments. And when she is out of my vision/voice command/control, my mental impression is that she drifts, and chaos builds. Like the natural tendency for entropy in the entire universe.
Force of will again June 23, 2012