When my thoughts turn away from just running the household and taking care of the family for any span of hours, it seems like things start to fall apart. I’ve talked about this a couple of times before. The household is a huge entropy generator. Being the center of it all. Trying to rein things in with my arms and mind. Doesn’t leave any space for doing my job in any kind of comfort. Everything is rushed, way way way behind. Half started. Half done. Forgotten and seemingly (to others) blown off. Can’t make commitments to do stuff. Letting students down. Letting colleagues down. It’s all there…
For picture day April 18, 2012
Min gave Ru-Jun som pretty braids. I could not get her to look up for my picture but hopefully the photographer at day care had better luck.
Off the nebulizer April 17, 2012
For now. Ru-Jun’s been breathing well and her coughing is pretty much gone. Still taking the generic version of zyrtek, singulair, and nasonex for her eustacean tube fluid, but ear infection is gone. Probably spelled a couple of things wrong above.
Unusual night April 16, 2012
Ru-Jun had no nap yesterday, which has been happening a bit on weekends lately (on Saturday with the sitter she had only a 15 min catnap in the car). After dinner last night at about 8 she asked me to go sit on the sofa with her. We had the TV on Disney Jr. In about 2 minutes she was asleep. So I gave her a nebulizer treatment and attempted to brush her teeth. Then I carried her up to her bed. She woke up a few times and needed to go to my bed about 11ish. But she essentially stayed asleep the whole night. She has not gone to sleep anywhere near that early since she was a baby.
Eye makeup April 14, 2012
I don’t get it. It often freaks me out. Seems like it would be unhealthy to do that to your eyes. Women with beautiful eyes don’t need it. And a lot of women have beautiful eyes.
Growth Spurt? April 13, 2012
Ru-Jun seems to have an insatiable appetite tonight. She has started to thin out (gaining height but not gaining weight). Maybe the weight dimension will pick up.
Feels like April 12, 2012
It feels like the entire organization of this household depends on my mental focus. If I allow my mind to relax at all, literal physical chaos results. The messiness of the household seems like a direct consequence of my imperfect ability to mentally organize everything.
Ru-Jun’s ability to cause entropy dwarfs my ability to produce order.
Still dry April 11, 2012
Cloudy and a slight sprinkle today but still dry. Ru-Jun’s and my respiratory stuff are better. Hopefully she can go off the nebulizer soon.
PT April 10, 2012
I had my second PT session yesterday. The therapist is workin on strengthening my entire upper back and chest. Also doing some easy exercises at home. I think it’s working. Overall the shoulder feels better, although the painful position is still there. This may take quite a while to fix.
