Ru-Jun, especially when tired, has a strong tendency to want to be very cuddly and clingy and generally everywhere that I am. As if we are not two different beings but one unitary being. Very annoying. I may long for some of this one day when she doesn’t want to do stuff with me like she does as a little kid. But for now her development depends on her becoming more independent.
Fewer tantrums April 28, 2012
Ru- Jun is having fewer tantrums these days. But she still has them. Being hungry and/or tired often are contributing factors. She has to kearn to be OK with being not in 100% physical comfort and having to deal with things. Patience too has yet to really develop.
about the joy and the beauty April 27, 2012
I have a lot of anger at the situation. But it’s nobody’s fault, so it’s rather pointless. I’ve always been about the beauty. And things are still beautiful. Shian-Ren and I certainly got beauty in Ru-Jun. So we’ll continue to be about the beauty. I also need to be about the joy. The joy has to shine through whatever happens.
This was my thought process driving to Stony Brook with Ru-Jun this morning.
Looks like April 26, 2012
another bout of ashma. Staying home today except for Dr. visit and to get meds…
coughing a bit April 25, 2012
Ru-Jun has a bit of a cough. So we did the nebulizer with albuterol around dinner time. I’ll listen to her breathing tonight. Hopefully it gets not worse. Cough may be going around in her daycare…
Great Play Date Today April 21, 2012
At Strathmore Park in Stony Brook with Niriel and Hailey and their moms. We spent about three hours there. Had a snackish lunch for the girls. We three parents got to chat quite a bit. The other two girls are headed to kindergarten after the summer. Ru-Jun will miss them in the day care room. We’ll have to keep up with them by having play dates.
late night April 20, 2012
Had a dinner party for a colleague’s birthday tonight so I had our aide stay an extra three hours. Things worked OK, but a bunch of stuff needed to get done when I got home, including taking a shower. Ru-Jun got hers but I didn’t get mine. I really can’t deviate from the schedule like this too often. Too much chaos ensues that takes too much energy and time to ameliorate.

